6th Aug 2005,
It's Saturday, end of the week. As usual, work; as usual Pharmacy full with noise- start of the day. They're talking about Mr Cheah's car. Not sure what's the gossip and chatting about. Can't keep up to that and won't want to involve in the things that is not beneficial. Worthless chatter, but I have been quiet. Head of Department should talk more, to know how to stir the group into excitement. My Finance Manager usually will come to Dispensary once a while to 'sembang' with the staff. But how come I find difficult. See how it goes, don't want to pressuring myself to much on that.
Yesterday Ladies Nite. Wow, can't believe I facilitate, with so lack of experience I share on the matter in regards purity and virginity. At some moment, there are silence, at some point we divert the sharing to guys. Ooops, at some point, we laugh and blush. Overall, we had great time. And it's the start of the ladies fellowship. The sharing is pretty normal- everyone go through, it's just sometimes too personal to share. We finished very late. 12am leave Sharon's house, then fetch Jasmine back, talk further in the car till 1am. Wow..man, I'm so tired. But it's nice. I learned to be opened, and learn to accept encouragement and edification from others.
The Pharmacy seems real noisy now. Should I just leave it as it is, or walk out and join the crowd? Or see what they're doing. Sometimes, it's just out of my control. God, I need your intervention. Teach me what to do.
